"The truth is that the more intimately you know someone, the more clearly you see their flaws. Thats just the way it is. This is why marriages fail, why children are abandoned, why friendships don't last. You might think you love someone until you see the way they act when they're out of money, or under pressure or hungry, for goodness' sake. Love is something different. Love is choosing to serve someone and be with someone in spite of their filthy heart. Love is patient and kind. Love is deliberate. Love is hard. Love is pain and sacrifice. It's seeing the darkness in another person and defying the impulse to jump ship."
On-point.
Updates for the past few weeks
Let's see... Had steamboat w alvin and his friends at mingyang's place and it was the first time i met all his friends at once. Was afraid that its gonna be so awkward for me but it actually turned out pretty okay! ;) Everyone was friendly and welcoming. Had a pleasant time getting to know them and the food was super yummy! The picture was missing colin and esther tho.
Then we had part two of the group outing! Headed to attica to party with some of his friends later that night. Jialin joined us to party, and jasmine happened to be at cq that night as well! Cannot really remb much from that night but it was pretty fun and i remb trying a new drink called waterfall at chupitos before jasmine came to find me and alvin there. And i remb the incident after the club helping some random malay guy that was nosebleeding. hahaha so fucked up cus apparently i went to snatch his passport from his ass pocket. Me and jas was so drunk we kept questioning if he was from india or bangladesh. HAHAHA. Shit. Alvin, jas and i then helped him get a cab home outside liangcourt. Apparently im quite the opposite when im drunk and im sober. Thank god the guy was super friendly and didnt get offended that we thought he was indian. HAHAHA.
Clique outing the next day, a Sunday. I guess two weeks ago? Can't remb. But yup we went to hatched at holland village! Wanted to go to d'good cafe initially but it was too packed and they had an event going on as well. Hatched was right next to d'good so we figured we could try that instead. The food there was pretty nice but a tad bit pricey tho. But the service is good! I had smoked salmon and scrambled eggs on toast. The truffle fries there were nice tooooooo ;)
LOOKS YUMMY RIGHT
Then on the week after, just pretty usual stuff, school on wednesdays-fridays and had two birthday celebrations. One on tuesday, for pohkian. We went to kovan to try this bkt and it wasnt nice at all. Terrible in fact. The meat was super hard and difficult to bite and the soup wasnt that nice either. No harm trying tho. I still think the bkt at cq and balestier are the best ones! After we had no plans at all so we went to dhoby for llaollao after countless suggestions and getting shot down. Hahaha. Shopped around and met alvin for dinner at tim ho wan ^-^
Another celebration on saturday, for clarence. We met at town for thai food and then we shopped around town as clarence had some vouchers shit. We went to ben sherman and i swear it felt like our whole afternoon was spent there cus he tried so many pants and shirts. By the time we left ben sherman it was nearing 5, so we walked to 313 to get drinks and cien and steph had their early dinner before work. Went to nex w clarence and we walked around and chilled at the skypark while he finished his cake that we bought him earlier. Left to meet alvin for dinner at tampines after and i tried MOF for the first time! The food there was pretty yummy.
A year ago, celebrating both our birthdays tgt. LOOK AT MY BROWS.
And now! Tadaaaaa~
So much can change in just one year, and one year can fly pass so quickly. How isit already november end? Time, you're moving way to fastttt. A year ago, so many things were different. I cant believe how much i've learnt and grown from this whole 2014, ( well almost ). What i've learnt? "Just remember that sometimes, the way you think about a person isn't the way they actually are."-John green. Anyway, on a sidenote, we're arriving the year end means...... ZOUKOUT IS NEARINGGG!! Countdown countdown countdown to 19 more days! Super super excited cus its my first time. ^-^ Alright, almost done w my blog update, with one last thing.
One more week till your exams are over! Hang in there baby, strive hard and study hard. I have faith in you :* Anyway this shows how much photos i've been taking of you. Am i a stalker yet? Hahahahaha. Love you!
"There are certain things in life where you know its a mistake but you don't really know its a mistake because the only way to really know its a mistake is to make that mistake and look back and say "Yup, that was a mistake." So really, the bigger mistake would be to not make that mistake because then you'll go your whole life without knowing if something is really a mistake or not." - Himym
True?
You were a mistake. I can't help but say it, you are. I don't know whats going on in your head right now but i'm pretty darn sure getting angry/affected when you know i'm happier now after finding someone that treats me so much better than you did shows it all. It goes without the saying, "You'll never cherish what you have until its gone." applies so much right now. Whats the point of telling me how much of a dick you were before and telling me you haven't moved on only now..? You're just like all the other guys out there that doesn't want to be tied down by one but you don't want anyone to have them in their possession as well. Its all gonna change, and it has changed ever since 9 months passed by slowly. You don't know what you did to me half a year into the route of our breakup. And you won't ever know. Know why? Because you're so full of yourself. You never saw us as equal. I regretted my decision 3 years back, if i didn't rushed into it, and really thought it through carefully, we might still be friends. But i guess its true, if i didn't make this mistake, i wouldn't know you were a mistake. Perhaps my hurt would just be done on me later. I will never ever go back to that past, because you don't know what it feels like to get lied upon, you don't know what it feels like to find out from the mouth of others at what you did with another girl, you don't know what it feels to be always up-tight and constantly worrying about where the fuck you are and always finding out that you're with another girl, you'll never know what it feels like to see a difference in treatment for someone else when you're supposed to be the one getting treated differently, and lastly, you'll never know what it feels like to make the decision to build up walls around your broken heart to not let it get more damaged beyond how much it already has been and watch how gradually you start losing the love you once had for someone just disappear, like that. So don't come running back to me and start up all your lies again because i'm no longer the cheryl you run back to vent all yr anger, and no longer the cheryl that always helps you clear your shit. I'm no longer the girl that loves you unconditionally. I don't. And no, i haven't changed. The only thing that changed is my impression on you. I can only wish right now, that i can still treat you like a normal friend, my friend. I can never look at you the same way ever again. I'm not blinded, anymore.
"Sometimes, things need to fall apart to make way for better things."
Which brings me here, how contented i feel with my life now. I know its super holy and what-not.... But i really thank god for letting me meet someone i never thought i would meet in my life. I never knew what it's like to be loved as much as i loved. And i finally know now. Thank you for being so understanding about my ex. You don't have anything to worry about sillyhead, because you won't lose me to anyone else, maybe ( Chris evans ) HAHAHA just kidding but you know, i'm not going anywhere baby. I'm nothing but blessed and thankful to have you in my life. Happy 1st. I love you! Psssssst. I love the way you look when you're shy when i tease you. ^-^ I love everything about you ;) Always looking forward to the weekends cause thats when i get to see you dear.
Had a great time at zouk halloween last week after my previous post. Been awhile since i last partied like that and drank till i wanna lie on the floor. First experience this year and so amazed at how spontaneous everyone is with their costumes. Freaking bouncer at phuture scared me and jasmine when we were paying for entrance. Hahaha. Oh and im quite annoying when im drunk so i did so many funny things that night especially to my dearest babygirl jasmine. shit hahaha. SORRY. laughed like hell. From throwing yr heels around while walking to zouk, to bulging into yr cubicle while you're peeing in the toliet, to shouting amazon forest out loud. ;) Baby bought me flaming lambo finally and it tasted quite nice like coffee but it was burning like hell. Claire and jasmine joined us last minute and it was a really fun night ^-^
Finally met up with the army botak boy and the one that is gonna enlist soon after what seems like forever! Supposed to be a full piggs outing but everyone else had plans already so it was just us and ommaaaaa. hahaha. Met up for lunch at shabu sai at orchard central and the food was super yummyyyy :P haven't had steamboat or buffets in forever and today after eating at 2-ish i was so full that i couldn't eat dinner which is super unlike me... and now im hungry while blogging. UGHZ. WHY AM I LIKE THAT. After lunch we walked around and wanted to try honey creme but the queue was so terribly long and we were too full to eat anything else either. So we decided to shop around and chilled at mos for a drink later cus we were so tired of walking. Headed to my gramps after supposingly for dinner but i was so full so i didn't eat. Had a good catch up w the pangs and being ridiculous while playing w oreo. Pretty much sums up my day.
SO TANNED AND LOST SO MUCH WEIGHT I CANT GET USE TO IT. HAHAHA.
To infinity and beyond, my dearest omma. A friend that knows me best, knows all my flaws and still loves me unconditionally and never fail to be there to listen to my rants and gossips. Love you, omma <3
groupshot!
Always one of favourite cover artists with such amazing voice ~_~
